In order to achieve the balance that you seek..........You have to let go of the heavy energy in every unstable relationship that you are energetically holding on to........
Let go of the pain.....the resentment.......the hurt......the feelings.......the blame........
When you put yourself first...when you choose you over anything or anyone that dims your light....YOU become Magnetic...all things desired for your highest good is drawn to you......
The human mind is programmed to always be in a state of Panic....Worry....or Fear.... Even when it is masked with a smile...focused energy....or constant external stimulation......
When the energy of hate presents itself...in an energy where you are permeating as Love.... Continue to Be Love....that is all.